An Artist Arising from the Uncertainties

A Page from My Journal:

Around the bend, in the unseen…arising from the very uncertainties that may now seem to taunt you, there are some amazing surprises, awesome twists, and spellbinding coincidences about to emerge that you can’t even now imagine. ~Note from the Universe (Tut.com)

As an artist I often find myself in a struggle with courage. Like a winding path through tall dark trees…Sometimes you can see a spark of color ahead and, at other times, you just need to step out in trust that the path will lead you where you need to go.

“People are afraid to pursue their most important dreams, because they feel that they don’t deserve them, or that they’ll be unable to achieve them.” ~Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

This is where I find myself today. Amidst a great struggle with myself and my creativity and my dreams. They all seem to have collided recently and merged into a mass of uncertainty…a confidence killer indeed.

I began to question everything even what brush I pick or the color I select…second and third guessing, walking away in frustration. I was chained to a rock in this forest of tall, dark trees unable and unwilling to move…

My usual creativity boosters {walks on the beach, dancing without music, writing in my journal} failed to produce the desired results…so I waited and prayed and waited…then I took action!

I called trusted friends, I asked for help, I scheduled sessions with my coach…my coach, the amazing Jennifer Tuma-Young of Spark Bounce Soar and Inspired Girl helped me discover that I actually believed I did not deserve success because my confidence had been shattered. Actually my confidence was all bottled up in a jar…quite protected and quite out of my reach… (read more here)

I was indeed in the throes of a major creative block.

Slowly I was able to arise from the rock of uncertainty and frustration and take one small faltering step forward…as I stepped out I was rewarded with some amazing surprises, a few awesome twists, and even a spellbinding coincidence or two…three beautiful things for sure!!!

I have no idea where this new path will lead but I am able to load my brush with color once again…and, hopefully, SOAR…

PS.  I am slowly releasing my confidence from its jar…