I wake this morning feeling….numb. I imagine many others around the world are feeling versions of this also. So I took to my morning prayer and meditative walk before opening my computer. My reading was John, Chapter 21. Jesus and his disciples were having a BBQ picnic by the Sea of Tiberias.
Can You Trust Me?
As I walked, I turned to Jesus for comfort. And I had the most profound consolation. Here is the exchange:
Jesus said to me, “Rebecca, can you trust me?” I said timidly, “Yes, Lord” He said to me, “Let it go.”
He then said to me a second time, “Rebecca, can you trust me?” I said to him, “Yes, Lord.” He said to him, “Then carry on.”
He said to me the third time, “Rebecca, can you trust me?” I was waiting for the wisdom, and I courageously said to him, “Yes, Lord, if you give me the grace.” Jesus said to me, “Love and pray.”
Learning to Trust the Journey
What a journey this life of mine has been. I am struggling to not be terrified this morning. I do not want to feel that everything I have worked for will soon disappear. Yet I am feeling these feeling. I took them to my sweet Lord in prayer this morning. The conversation was brief and powerful.
I trust that 59,082,155 people cannot be wrong. I trust that God will take care of my family, my country, and me. I trust that there is a reason for everything. I trust in my ability to put my faith in God when my faith in humanity is wavering. I trust the process. I trust because I must in order to remain balanced and carry on. I trust in letting go and moving on. I trust that God will give me the strength to persevere through what ever this choice will bring to our beautiful country and world. I trust because I can. I trust.
[…] I even have a Prayer Ministry on social media. For the past year, I have been publishing my art and photography of God’s vast beauty as a Morning Meditation. Early every day, I post a photograph along with a daily Bible reading and my prayerful thoughts on Instagram. On Facebook, I post an artwork of the photograph to my Art as Prayer page and group. In February, I am taking these Live on both platforms each morning. It is what I have been called to do. It is my little way to fulfil my purpose and give my gifts back to God. I have shared my thoughts on prayer Prayer is Speaking to God, Meditation is Listening and Making Sense of Nonsense. […]