The Drama Queen’s Untimely Demise

The Drama Queen’s Untimely & Unlovely Demise

Once upon a time in a place oh so near…When the real life drama rises up and overtakes the supposed, imagined or created drama in your life…a drama queen must retire. That’s the rule!!!

The loss of a job…of insurance…of the ability to create an income to feed, clothe and shelter yourself becomes a harsh reality as the rules of your life change dramatically {pun sadly intended!)

My time to strut and fret upon the stage as ended with a whimper. I stand before you on this stage of my life in the depths of a fear so powerful, I am almost paralyzed by it. When I allow myself to look ahead, I see only darkness with nowhere to go…NO WHERE!!!

Becoming homeless a few days after my 60th birthday was not, I assure you, on my bucket list. This home, however, was!!! This dreamer, this visionary  could not have imagined this scenario…yet it is upon me bearing down on my heart and soul like the heavy velvet curtains slowly falling over the stage after the final curtain call….the show is over, finished, never to be seen again!

There is no freezing of the moments of joy….or preventing the hands of the clock from moving forward…relentlessly toward that dreaded time when I must close the door on life as I know it and step into drama unknown…

I have prayed every novena I know…I have asked, begged and searched for a job. I have worked so hard trying to keep my mind from playing out the endings…I fall into bed in the wee hours and sleep because I am too exhausted to do otherwise.

 

As I write, I look at the skin on my hands that has become paper thin with age spots…the hands of an old woman…and I wonder what is to become of me???

Te demise of the drama queen…that’s the rule!